The History of Mediumship- A Broad Overview

Most of the time when people think about Evidential Mediumship and Development, they find the Spiritualist church. The commonly held belief is that Mediumship originated with Fox Sisters in upstate New York, but what they don’t realize it Mediumship predates Spiritualism. The History of Mediumship predates modern-day Spiritualism, and can be traced back thousands and tens of thousands of years within Indigenous Cultures. Mediumship is woven within the traditions of every culture. The earliest record that has been found is located in a cave within the Pyrenees Mountains of Ariege, France, and dates back to 13000 BC. 

You can find Mediums in Ancient Greece and Rome. In Greek culture, they were the Sibyls and first mentioned in 500 BC. In Rome, they were the Oracles; the most famous being the “Oracle at Delphi” who spoke with the Authority of Apollo. 

In the Old Testament of the Bible, you find references to Mediums in Leviticus and Deuteronomy, where it is forbidden to consult mediums and to seek guidance from Sources other than God Himself. In 1st Samuel 28, you find the story of the Witch of Endor, the Medium Saul went to visit to speak with the Prophet Samuel to get his council before going to war. He was disguised- she was the only Medium left in the City after he had driven the rest out- and when she found out who he was (because Mediums know in a reading who you are- you can’t hide from one who knows her craft), she stopped the reading. He had her continue and she brought forward Samuel to advise Saul on the battle the next day. This story has a tragic ending in 1st Samuel- but the description of how a reading typically goes sometimes is spot on and in the Bible. The original Hebrew name for Medium was changed to witch when the Church rewrote several historical texts, including the Bible. You find other mentions of Mediumship and mediumship experiences in the New Testament as well. 

Today’s Mediumship (Mental Mediumship) is largely Spiritualism-based, thanks to the Fox Sisters. Both Spiritism and Spiritualism were born just after the Second Great Awakening in America, in a home in Upstate (Rochester New York), in 1848. The Fox Sisters heard knocking in the home, and when they started tapping back, found that they were having an intelligent conversation with whomever and whatever was rapping with them. In 1849, they had a crowd of over 400 people for a public demonstration, and continued to do public demonstrations around New York. This movement birthed both Spiritism and Spirirtualism.

Spiritism slightly predates Spiritualism, and was founded by Allan Kardec of France, a scientist and a skeptic who traveling to the US and actively was working to debunk Spiritism and Intelligent Communication through Scientific Studies before he found his work was showing definitive proof that Mediumship and life after death was real. Science continues to study Mediums today- Laura Lynn Jackson and Tyler Henry both have had their brains studied when working and under scans and work closely with other Mediums at Scientific Institutes and Research Centers across the Country. Allan was known as the Grandfather of Spiritism. He has written quite a few books- the most popular in Mediumship Circles being “The Book of Mediums” and “The Spirit’s Book”. These two books hold a lot of Mediumship philosophies from that time that have now been expanded on and are outdated, but they are the first texts on Modern Mediumshup that we still have access to today. 

Spiritism was based largely around physical mediumship, phenomena and seances. People had time to sit in circle for hours- at the same time, in the same place, the same day of the week, with the same people. They would finally build enough power together to bring through evidence of the Spirit Communicator in Automatic Writing. Automatic Writing was the preferred method of communication in the mid-1800s because the information that came through within the writing far exceeded the mental capacity of the medium. The writings you find from this time inside Mediumship texts is largely question and answered based, and it was the test they used to judge if they were connecting to Spirit. 

At the same time Spiritism came into existence, so did the Charletons. This is where you begin to find the foot pedals to move the table for seances, or the pictures of ectoplsm that are just sheets. You can even find staged photos of dolls that were claimed to be Spirits. Fun fact, Harry Houdini’s wife Bess was a medium who held seances for 10 years after his death, who was largely a skeptic until his friendship with Sir Arthur Conan Doyle (who later turned frenemy) and then doubled down on his skepticism. Harry Houdini went so far as to speak to Congress in support of a bill banning mediumship and psychic practices (where he also called all mediums frauds). The Bill died in Committee, but the damage was done. Mediums and Mediumship had begun to get a reputation and a bad rap as less reputable and as a joke.  

Spirtualism and the Spiritualist movement gave birth to the formation of a religion and faith. Spirtualism is a philosophy, science and religion in one, and the principle philosophies are found in it’s 7 Principles. It also was the time when Mediumship moved from mostly physical in nature and into Platform and Mental Mediumship. Platform Mediumship was practiced largely by the Spiritualist Church to prove that life continues after death, and was largely developed to appease skeptics, with the Fox Sisters having the first successful demonstration of Mediumship recorded. Presidents Lincoln and Cooleridge all reported having Mediums hold seances in the White House, and Mary Lincoln actively practiced Spirirtualism while President Lincoln was in office.

Spiritualism had its biggest growth in World War I and World War II. The religion and faith spread from the United States to England, where it flourished and grew. You can find the famous Arthur Findlay College in Stanstead Hall in England today, and still take classes on campus or online. The sheer number of casualties seen in World War I and World War II was something we as a people had never seen before- and the need for Mediums during this time was huge. One of the most famous Mediums that came out of that time was Helen Hughes- a clairaudient medium. If you read her transcripts of her readings- her information is crisp and clean, sometimes only needing one sentence to deliver the message and evidence. The most comparable medium we have working today to her is probably Indigenous Medium Sean Leonard. His clairaudience is unmatched, with the same clear and crisp evidence as well. Helen would travel by train and demonstrate across England. She brought reputability back to Mediumship and increased the standard for evidence. 

Also instrumental in the growth of Spiritualism were Indigenous, Asian, East Asian and African American bodies of culture communities and mediums. In the early to mid 1900s, Mediums like Harriet Wilson of Boston, the novelist, trance medium and lecturer, and the Cercle Harmonique of New Orleans put their lives on the line to bring forward Spirit Communication and Philosophies and Spiritualism into the mainstream. 

In England during the 1940s, Gordon Higginson began working as a Medium. Known as one of the most influential spiritualist mediums of the 20th Century, he helped establish and develop Arthur Findlay College into the internationally renowned center for the advancement of spiritualism, mediumship and psychic sciences. He was the President of the Spiritualists National Union from 1970 until his death in 1993. You can still find recordings and videos of his lectures on his Tribute page and on You Tube, including his trance mediumship sittings. 

In the 40s, it was widely believed you were either born a medium or you weren’t. Today, we know we all have the ability to connect mediumistically and we can all develop that ability further with patience, devotion and practice. Much of what I have learned and developed is Spirtualist and Indigenous based, as I prefer to work outside of structures even if I belong to a structure. Because Mediumship is like a thumbprint and we all have out own unique way of connecting with Spirit, we should all be able to develop outside of boxes. If everyone gets the same information and evidence- Mediumship begins to look boring, and the joy of creating art  that we develop in the process of developing out unique version of Mediumship is lost. Development should always be fun! 

In the 90s, Mediums like Sylvia Brown, John Edwards, James Van Pragh, and John Holland modernized Mediumship. Mediumship became more accessible main stream as it was introduced to television. Because Mediumship is so mainstream now, people are less skeptical than in previous years and centuries when the focus was more on proving existence of life after death with evidence than the messages. Because the practice is more mainstream, people have a better understanding of what mediumship is, what it can be, and how healing it is. Mediumship has switched from more evidential to more message based within the mainstream. Mediumship also has become more multi-disciplinary, and people come into mediumship now from Reiki, massage therapy and even hair. 

When we start down the Mediumship Development path, and when we begin to connect to our family and our Ancestors, we are able to begin to connect to our own cultures and our roots. Every culture and tradition has its own history of mediumship. As you begin your development journey, I encourage you to look at the culture you are from and the history of mediumship found within it. Identify within yourself and your Heritage where your mediumship is from, and what it looks like to and for your culture. These people have blazed their own trail for us so we can sit in spaces and develop, and play with our own personal and unique connections to Spirit. And never forget, when we sit inside a Development class we are writing history ourselves in this moment- by healing Ancestral Wounds in our Lineage and by making Mediumship accessible for everyone. 

On Holding Myself Back

It’s funny, when you sit down thinking you are going to start a gargantuan project like starting a book….. I have personally attempted to write my personal collection of stories since I was a child. I have always been the kind of girl who puts things on paper- writing is cathartic and helps me personally sort through what I am going through in my internal world. Over the years, I have been told I would write a book by those who knew me and by strangers who did not know me, stirring a dream within my most private internal self. If you are like me, you know that the dream will stir and then, as it is ignored, drop off and out of our awareness until the next reminder from ourselves, our environment, or the people around us. In the remembering of the dream, we are reminded that our dreams never die or go away- they are shelved for later until we either have the capacity or the clarity to move forward and pursue them. Capacity is essential- because to realize a goal, we must learn how to stay within our bodies and step into our Embodiment. Sometimes clarity is gained in an instant. Other times, it is as we build the foundations for our dreams that we begin to know HOW we are supposed to obtain the end result.

There are several schools of thought about forward movement, and trying to do the thing. Depending on where and how you were raised, you were probably taught that in order to do the impossible thing (to get the thing you want)- you needed to push forward and work as hard as you can. This school of thought- perpetuated within our workplaces, our communities, and ultimately our own personal worlds by Capitalism and Religion celebrates a Wounded Masculine point of view most people do not realize they are operating within. When the obtainment of the desire, the dream and the goal becomes how we define our Worth, we enter the danger zone of losing how we see ourselves and how we interact with our Communities and the World around us- including the people we interact with on a daily basis. We begin to operate from a place that says “if we do this, we will feel worthy of this thing”. We pursue, focus and hyperfixate on doing what we feel is essential for us to feel worthy. The need for perfection begins to take over as we script how the thing is supposed to look and feel to us in order to call the thing “successful”. 

As we continue to push ourselves to prove we are good enough, we further divorce ourselves from the truth that no matter if the desire, dream or goal is realized- our Worth is inherent. We are enough whether we do the thing or not. When we are able to take a step back from moving forward and when we begin to remember that our Worth is not tied to what we have or how we defined ourselves or if we have achieved the thing- we realize that within the pushing forward we are really moving further away from the thing we want to create the most. The more self awareness we are able to step into of our inner world and inner patterns, the more we see that the places where we feel shame and less than are places and opportunities to meet ourselves more fully. We begin to relax into timing, allowing things to be and slowly releasing the reins we have on the control we have needed for so long to feel safe. Our sense of safety begins to recalibrate- moving from something that is needed externally to something found internally within our bodies that we have been taught to ignore by the World around us. 

 My journey has been a return to Wholeness. I was born complete and whole. I was raised in a world that asked me, and asks you, to hide who we are and who we are meant to be. To be whole asks us to live inside our Authenticity and Integrity, to fully accept ourselves for who we are- in our fullest expression our Duality- embracing the thoughts, the emotions, and our judgements of ourselves. Light and dark create the whole, and it is only by operating from this place of Wholeness that we can move through the things we view as obstacles we run into on the way to achieving our dreams, desires and goals. When we learn to show ourselves grace, compassion and acceptance, we learn how to hold the same space for others around us. While we must be able to operate from the place of Duality- because our entire world operates from a place of duality (us vs them, light and dark). Operating from a place of wholeness embraces who we are- uniquely ourselves- and the place that recognizes the same piece of Humanity-that piece that is the Soul- runs through us all and is within us all. No matter how different we might seem to be on the outside, inside we are the same. We share the same fears, the same limiting beliefs, the same emotions and thinking patterns. As we begin to identify our own nuances and who we are internally beyond the personality and the body- the more we are able to See ourselves in all of our complexity, the more able we are to see others in theirs. 

Returning to Wholeness is a Journey of the Heart. The Heart is the center of the body and drives all the bodily functions. When Awakening through Relationships- and developing Mediumship is developing relationships with others- learning to operate from the Heart becomes central to our own Healing and how we live our life. The prescence we learn to develop when Sitting becomes the prescence we bring to our individual Worlds. 

Mavis Patilla shared a story in her book Droplets of God a conversation between herself and her mentor, Gordon Higgonson. They were driving home after working that weekend doing demonstrations in the South of England, and she was recounting a demonstration she had done in Belfast, Ireland. Ireland has had a history of internal conflict, leading to violence and countless deaths. She recounted a reading she had done during a demonstration where a woman’s son had come through who had been a member of the IRA and who had died in a fight. The young man asked her to convey to his mother that he had done the right thing, and he had sacrificed his life for a just cause. Two days later, another son who had fought for the Protestants came through during a demonstration for his mother- the opposite side of the conflict for my American people who are not familiar with Irish History. He told his Mother he had died a hero, defending his country and his faith. 

As Mediums, we are asked to set our opinions, ideas and convictions aside for the Sitter and to deliver clear messages from their Loved Ones on the Other Side. One of the hardest lessons some of us learn is that our Assumptions about what we think someone would thing, be or do are wrong. This includes after death- because our personalities, beliefs, thoughts and actions all continue on after we die. Our gift as Mediums to the Social Justice movement is implicit. When we share others’ truths and stories; when we operate from a place of connection and community, we are reminded that there is a place we can all meet behind the conditioning of our childhood (and adulthood to a degree), the dogma we develop from our beliefs and ideologies, and the social constructs and systems we live and operate within. When we open from the Heart and learn to truly see and hear others, we begin to live from that place of peace that allows for a connection to Others. Person to person. Heart to Heart. In returning to Wholeness ourselves, we become the place that others can pause and step into their Wholeness. 

Life is a returning to Wholeness. We are born Whole- we are broken as we grow. At a certain point, the closer we get to the End of our Lives if we are afforded the oppurtunity to age and grow old, the pieces start to come back together and we return to ourselves- new, changed, and with the Wisdom only lived experience can give us. Wholeness is a return to truth- our Truth. It is a return to Authenticity. It is a knowledge that we are our own Home- and it becomes the part of ourselves that no one else can take away no matter what situation we find ourselves inside. It’s a Journey Home- a return and remembering of our Heart. When we remember the Heart, recognize our Soul as the anchor that is Home. 

This cannot be forced- it cannot be rushed. It must be created and each vulnerability met with love, acceptance, compassion and grace. 

May this writing unfold at exactly the right time and exactly how is needed. May I be content with what is said and understand that my understanding is limited to what I know in this moment. May I always be open to grow and change- inside myself, my beliefs, my personal philosophies and inside the World I operate within. 

May I shine and brighten my corner of the World- and may I remember that I am enough exactly as I am in this moment. 

Can You See Your Self for Who You Truly Are?

I channeled this sitting at my desk at Work on 7/13/23

It's incredibly relevant to where I am at right now, as I find myself in a place where the old stories no longer have the same hold on me, and as I am writing new ones. I hope this impacts you like these words have impacted Me.

Your conditioning has led you to a place where you expect to have to prove yourself to others. Your conditioning has led you to a place where you can see the pattern in the proving.

So now- it’s time to step outside those limiting beliefs. It’s time to make the change. Any one can sit in the discomfort and call it good. Not many people can move beyond it and choose something different. To be something different.

In order to move in this level of Acceptance and to See Yourself- you have to move with a level of Grace. Grace for others is great- but unless you give that same grace to yourself, it is useless. You cannot pour from a cup that does not believe- and you have to be willing to give that grace o your self in order to move into that new direction and embrace that change.

When was the last time you saw how truly perfect you are as you are? You play a game of remembering and forgetting now. Now it’s time to really lean into your Soul and remember that you are a Soul too. Not just a human in a physical body. A Soul that needs nourishing and tenderness. A Soul that needs Love. Until that love comes in from the internal part of you, along with the Grace to get it wrong and to not be perfect- you will continue to feel lost and like you are drifting. Because Love is Always the missing piece. Always.

Stop holding on so tight.

Stop clenching the things around you like they will disappear if you let go.

Stop trying to hard.

Lean into the Grace. The imperfection. The whole point on this journey is to find yourself and who you are in your Human and in your Soul. You found the Soul. Now it’s time to take it back to the Human and relearn. Start at the basics again. Sit in your Power. Learn what it feels like. And let go of the need to be perfect. Let go of the need for it to make sense. Keep playing with your readings- keep finding your comfort zone. Follow what comes up and hold onto that authenticity. Stop making it so hard. Breathe in and out and lean into flow. Flow state works best- when you aren’t trying to force your energy forward. You need to stop pushing and just breathe.

Step back and Surrender.

Remember Grace.

Grace is the ultimate form of love

Now I’ll ask you again- when was the last time you saw yourself? When was the last time you loved yourself? We can show you all day long, but until you believe it and the disconnect is gone- you will still operate in the same behaviors and need the same reassurance.

Where is the Holding your Power? Where is the retraining of the mind? Where is the changing your thinking? Step out of the forcing. Take a deep breathe in. Remember- you are not of God, your Soul is a piece of God and therefore you ARE God. It’s the collective power as a whole that feeds each and everyone of us. Our collective light shines together and alone in order to reach the world.

So breathe in-

Yes you are a piece of something larger.

But you are also an individual.

Do you See Yourself for Who you Truly Are?

Don’t Take Your Self so Seriously

Venus went direct and the Full Moon in Libra happened on Saturday. That day, I sat inside a Chalisa’s for Peace Event (Go Dharmic), and did 108 Hanuman Chalisas. The Event lasted just over 13 hours and by the time it was over, I felt like I had taken a bath internally I was so CLEAR. Anything that was not nailed down as Center was touched during those Chalisas. I went through so many emotions that day, and was able to observe so much about myself. Funny story- I was at Chalisa #89 or #90, and I was reeeeeally projecting my voice and trying to push it out loudly and forcefully- I had my chest out, my back straight- and picture INTENSE chanting with bulging eyes haha. I was at about Verse 20 or 27 (?) into it- and I got sent the image of me sitting on the bed and what I looked like at that particular moment. I lost it and started laughing right there mid-meditation. And I heard “You can’t force it- or whatever you are attempting to do right now” in a very gentle male voice while pointing out what I was doing internally and externally. And I heard in my Baba’s voice “I’m Soooo Serious’ (sarcastic/joking- there is a Lecture where he said the same thing about himself and exactly what I hear) and he pointed out my Voice was projecting through my Throat. He then asked me, “What happens if you project from the Heart? It meets the Solar Plexus and the Throat, and feeds them both. At that moment going forward, I began to watch where I am speaking from- my heart or my throat. It’s not perfect with the watching, but as I become aware of it, the space is able to create change within my Self. I ate and went to bed that night at 8:45. I started at 5:30 AM about 4 Chalisas “late”. I say “late” because we are never really late, are we? If we are aware of Divine Timing, we know we are always on time for everything.

This was the first time I had sat in something like this. I had only recently learned about the Practice of Chanting the Hanuman Chalisa 108 times in January, around the same time I had the nudge to learn the Hanuman Chalisa. I was aware that I would be sitting for at least 12 hours that day- but I HAD to sit. There wasn't really a question of whether or not I would that day for me… there were signs everywhere that the Hanuman Chalisa was important to learn inside my personal practice- and I started learning it back in January.

Learned the Invocation and got the first four or five verses down in Hindi, and I ended up walking away from the Prayer for a few months. The Chalisa came back around about the same time I started the Initiation with Danielle Searancke again in February. After I took a Development Class in Tulsa locally back in 2022, Danielle was my next Mentor. I started with her Podcast and then took the Initiation Round #9 in the Fall of 2022. I returned back to her container this Spring for my yearly Development Class, and because she is an amazing Teacher when it comes to Mediumship Development.

In August of 2023, I started sitting for a regular Meditation Practice when I took up Kundalini Meditation with Kyle Gray and I took 2024 to explore Eastern Philosophies and Spirituality after meeting Ram Dass. I began to sit with myself in 2023 every day, and I learned how to listen to My Spirit inside my daily practice. Mavis Patilla has been a major influence inside my Development as far as my Personal Journey goes- especially around her Teachings about connecting to our own Spirit Within. Meditation gave me the chance to connect within Myself, and a chance to learn who I really am behind all of who I think I am.

Kundalini Meditation introduced me to chanting, especially Mantra Practice and Yoga Nada (the Yoga of Sound). Yoga is absolutely beautiful when you get into the Spirituality and Philosophy that is the Practice. Most of us in the West know about Yoga through the bastardized physical Practice that is Yoga in the United States. True Yoga is about Union between the Body, Mind and Soul (the Spirit Within). Because my introduction to Yoga Philosophy was through Ram Dass, I was also introduced to Buddhism, the Tao, Zen, and more Eastern Philosophies and Meditations. I changed my Spiritual Practice and started sitting Vipassana this past summer to connect more to my body and left the Kundalini space. I took the chanting with me as a permanent practice, and found Bhakti Yoga- the Yoga of the Heart where chanting is an integral part of the practice.

Chanting is one of my favorite ways to Meditate. I can tell when I am not focused on the Meditation (especially when the chanting is in Hindi or Sanskrit), and I am caught thinking. The prayers and mantras stay with me all day and replay in my head as a steady stream (autistic- and my brain is constantly spinning). When I have a standing Chanting Practice (a Japa Practice) for 40, 90, 120 days, the mantra begins to teach me. One day I might hear every syllable that comes out of my mouth and every space between syllables, one day I might feel the Chant within my body within my chakras and move up and down my spine, one day I might get absolutely lost in the space within, one day I might not be able to quiet my brain at all and just have to keep coming back to the meditation and redirecting myself back to the prayer or Mantra. Chanting and singing are way to reset the Vagus nerve and brings balance to the Body. As a Medium, I have been able to access Trance states through Chanting and I have had some of my deepest conversations with my People and Friends beyond the Veil during these types of Meditations. My brain works well with something else to focus on beyond myself- and when it can stay busy thinking something repetitive. Sometimes I even listen to Mantra when I am doing readings because it works that well for me at keeping that part of my brain busy.

It had been at least 6 months since I had sat for longer than 20 minutes in meditation, and probably closer to 9 months since I had done a Mantra meditation. I did not know the Hanuman Chalisa fully- it is a 40 Verse Prayer in Hindi and I struggled with everything past verse 5. The first 20 chalisas were me trying and trying and trying to get the Hindi part correct. I had bought Krishna Das's “Flow of Grace” in January because he does a word-by-word pronunciation guide inside one of the Chapters to learn with, and I had been through it enough to know how the Hindi was pronounced if I could listen to the Prayer slowly, and I have always been a quick study when I am motivated and good with languages if I can hear the pronunciation. I spent a little bit winging it with the Prayer. Every time the frustration would arise because of a mispronunciation, or an error, or a wrong word, or a stumble, and I felt that Reactivity arise within myself, I had enough space to stop and observe. I remember saying to myself at one point- this is going to be a long meditation if I choose to make myself miserable. I decided at that point to lean into trust that I would pick the words of the Prayer up when I was supposed to and I would just stay and not give up. So I did- and by about Chalisa 90 the kinks were worked out. I decided to choose to treat myself with Grace instead of Pressure. Compassion instead of Anger. Love instead of Shame. That might sound like a no-brainer, but for me that was a turning point.

I took notes as the impressions hit me during the whole experience. Danielle had mentioned chanting a few times, the Hanuman Chalisa had come back into my awareness along with an urgency to learn the Prayer, and I know because of the timing of the Event and the Intiation that sitting inside this Experience is a part of my Mediumship and my Personal Development/Spiritual Practice.

I made it 2 hours and 20 minutes (Chalisa #18), and ended things with my long term off/on friend of eight years completely. I saw how not accepting the Impermanence that is Life and that Mediumship teaches us was creating a cycle of forgive and forget that was perpetuating pain and was essentially people pleasing. I chose to give myself Grace and move forward instead of staying stuck in the holding pattern of pain for both of us.

I realized Mediumship eventually moves from being a Spirtual Practice (Bhankti Yoga) to a tool of a Spritual Practice that opens us deeper to the connection to ourselves and the world around us. As we learn to connect to the Other Side, we learn to connect and see and hold the people in our Physical/Human World. My Spiritual Practice is Practicing Moving from a place that Remembers to Love Everyone, Serve Others and from a Place of Compassion, and Remember the Divine that Lives within Us All.

I hit a wall at some point (probably about Chalisa 40 or 50) where I was sitting in grief that had circled back around from ending the relationship, and was in tears. I found myself writing “oh well- I can break. I will still be standing after the break because my Heart can hold it ALL”. When learn inside our Mediumship Practice that we can truly hold the pain and grief of our sitter and our person on the Other Side. We can also hold their joy and concern for their loved ones here. Our Development and subsequent sittings outside our Development teach us how to hold ourselves in our own uncertainty, and we learn how to meet ourselves with this same open and accepting heart. As we continue to grow and explore our consciousness, we learn we don't have to close our hearts in the face of pain and we can carry all the paradoxes life carries within the journey. We can choose peace today, especially when we remember peace is found within us and not externally outside of us.

There are a few more pages of reflections- but about halfway through I burst into tears. In all my reflecting and writing and offering myself Grace, Compassion and Acceptance- and continuing to show up for myself and inside this Experience (because it is NOT easy to sit like this), I realized I am NOT the same person I was in 2022 when I first walked into Danielle's Intiation. There is nothing left of the old me but those parts of my personality that are Me and Who I Am. I move differently today. I treat myself differently today. I embody what I believe today. I truly have no where to go back to. The only way to move is forward and choose new experiences.

We move from a different place when we offer ourselves Grace, Compassion and Acceptance and we create the space to choose to react to the parts of Ourselves we are so critical of with the qualities of the Heart. Mediumship gives us the space to develop these qualities for others. Our super powers kick in when we can turn those same qualities on ourselves and we begin to love all of ourselves from our Heart with the same love we give to Others.

Ashley ♥️

Drip-Drip-Drip

Welcome to my Page. I want to start getting my thoughts out into the World and using my voice- so I am starting here and today. I am limiting the editing and keeping the roll-out simple, so please show me grace as I move into this space.

I have had a Roof Leak since March that I have attempted to fix for 3 months. Why is this the topic of my first blog post you might ask. Very simply- the drip got me.

Mediumship Development is one of those Spirtual Practices that invites the Human Side of us to illuminate our shadow. The Development Path acts like a Karma Yoga and Bhakti Path mix, showing us areas where we can open our hearts a little more in the face of uncertainty and vulnerability. It enhances our concentration and we learn to be kinder to ourselves as we navigate the uncertainty and learn to speak our truth. One of the concepts Mediumship Development teaches us is emotional regulation in the face of uncertainty and “no”. Learning to manage the dips of the link and the dips of energy that are natural in any conversation lead to holding our Power on a deeper and more empowering level.

So how does the Drip, Drip, Drip from my ceiling translate to Mediumship Development, Meditative Practice and Emotional Regulation inside my Daily Life? Imagine you are sitting in your room, knowing water damage is affecting your home and there is absolutely nothing you can do because you have done everything that can be done. When you hear the water start dripping, what would your reaction be in that moment?

I have had a Daily Meditation practice since 2023. I play with different forms of meditation and different lineages and different types because each style of meditation brings a different awareness of myself into the bigger picture of the Whole. Lately, my focus has been on Vipassana and Breathing based/Body Scan Meditations to invite presence. The problem with presence is if I am not careful, my thoughts can overwhelm me during the sitting. When I sit inside meditation or inside a Mediumship reading, if I am not focused on watching the waves of thoughts and emotions as they arise, I very easily fall into giving the experiences around me more weight than the internal experiences that are gold and that live inside me. As I bring my Meditative practice to my daily world, instances like the drip give me space to explore the feelings that arise like panic, anxiety, and the thought forms that can carry those thoughts on for infinity. While the feelings that arise might live in my body and be tied to individual, familial, societal, generational, and collective trauma- my thoughts and what arises from them and what I do with them lives within Me.

During one of my last Meditations, my Baba impressed upon me the idea that a thought form and the feelings that create the story are like Dandelions. Envision if you will the Dandelions we picked as children and blew on to make a wish. When the Dandelion is blown on, the seeds spread and pollinate the world around it. It acts as the center. Imagine all those seeds being blown off into the Atmosphere and Space, with no direction. When we allow a thought to take off on its own without being conscious of what we are Creating within our World around us, we are effectively leaking our energy into the World with no direction. Those thoughts then create our individual World and impact us and those within our Worlds.

As the anxiety rose with every drip, I sat and acknowledged the rising panic, thoughts and feelings. I started greeting the drip with “ah so” or “this too”. As this process of meeting myself began, I started to see the part of myself that wanted to protect me and greeting her with love and acceptance, the drip started to bother me less and less. It's still there- it's still a problem. That didn't change. My reaction to myself in relation to the drip changed within the span of 3 days of non-stop rain.

Every situation we find ourselves in- chosen or not- provides a unique chance to practice the emotional regulation we learn within Mediumship Development. When we stop rejecting ourselves for being human and we open our Hearts to our feelings and emotions, we learn that our Heart is big enough to carry it all. It's a practice. It is never perfect because we came here to learn how to talk through the fear and the anxiety and to love ourselves through all the things that arise. However we choose to approach the lesson will be different based on the individual or the Karmic path each of us takes this life. For

It all leads back to the Path of the Awakening Heart.

We Never Walk this Journey Alone.

Ashley ♥️